They call me insane, a fanatic.
If the mainstream social circle is sane, I want to be clinically irate.
From a very young age, I didn't want to fit in.
Epecially if what they had going on was the "normal" we were supposed to attain to.
I dropped out of school and joined nature in my search for my personal development.
Complacency is no mark of a strong soul.
Defined from an early age and marginalized.
I am crazy enough in my decisions that most look at me like "who the fuck is this dude?"
If they are the saviour. Make me the anti christ.
It takes a lot of self confidence, trust and support to take everything you se around you and decide, this is enough.
I HAD ENOUGH My family, friends, support, all blinded in the matrix, willing to support a system that was hell bent on raping and stealing from us. People look at me and ask, "hey whats wrong?" Really! Can you not tell. Can you not feel what is wrong in the world! What is happening in the UK right now is a prime example. Building full of the "poor" burning in front of the richest homes in the area. They tried to clad a build to make it look "nicer" and in the process killed many families. Governments use words like "inflation" to tell you they are directly stealing from you, mingled in with "income taxes" "goods and service taxes" Our parents have been stolen from. If it weren't for hot showers and cell phone, we are not sure everyone would be happy.
Our system is collapsing, sociopathic behaviors is voted in and accepted. Tit for tat as children die.
FFFFFFFUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
I am a young man, the fight and passion in someone my age is right at the surface. This body is that of an animals. It knows how to kill to protect what I love, to fight for what I believe in. I put it all down and moved into the jungle to be a warrior in a garden
Would you rather be a gardener in a war or a warrior in a garden?
The choice for me was easy.
Meanwhile the US government has spent over a trillion dollars on the F-35. A totally useless aircraft. The DOD has lost many more trillions, which just so luckily disappeared in the hit on the Pentagon on 9/11. We pay our hours for paper, that in one way or another are based on the corrupt fabric of the dying monetary system. We are angry, we are confused, pissed off.
I am not by any means a smart human being. Deciding to leave all of this behind to grow, doesn't even feel like I had a choice. It was either this, or stay and contribute to the continuation of global genocide and arrogance. This path is not easy. I have spent many times crying alone, even now. Tears burst behind these blue eyes. So much of the world is happily arrogant, ignorant and supportive of these global crimes. Yet, we are the marginalized ones. We are the ones they look down on, like we fucked up.
Alive and Breathing
It can be a lonely path of solitude. The plants and animals have become my best friends. The breeze blowing through the leaves and the water of rain drops on our face, our greatest gifts. Naked in the field, screaming. Even still, I cant imagine what it would take to be blind to all of this. To accept and embrace the choices of the first world. If they are sane. I prefer to be insane. Joined recently by a couple who have become dearest friends to me. They are doing the same, moving from the Hustle life in the UK to start planting trees. We spent yesterday climbing through the jungle together with machetes cutting down the jungle, finding fresh water crabs, fruits we had never seen and tripping out on the truths of nature.Mean while all the electricity in the surrounding countries had gone out. All the stores closed, fridges with food already starting to go bad. This is what we prepared for. The just in time delivery system will fail one day, it is fragile.
We are not, we are anti fragile.
We are ready to be broken and put back together again.
Arcane Conclusion
There is no end to this, not untill we all agree, this has to end. When we all decide together we have had enough and we take our species and these animal bodies in a new direction. Women and men bent on grooming, but not for survival or procreation. Almost No one has children anymore, chasing careers over the nature and survival of reality. Paper cash, big houses, fast cars. I was blessed and cursed enough to have had lived in multi million dollar homes, hundred thousand dollar sports cars. Two,gorgeous,young naked women tide to the bed for my enjoyment when I would get home.
I lived the life of a rock star when I was younger. Slowing down to this pace is not easy, and there is almost no support for those that choose to do it.
Silent and unseen hero's.
My rewards are the small moments of connection with nature, the smells of the blooming plants. The witness of a new born sloth and its mom enjoying the fresh leaves. Monkeys play and laugh as they throw each other out of the trees. I am forever grateful for everything I have seen. I have lived a full life.
This wasn't easy to write, and I am revealing a lot of myself. Open wide.
The jungle fights me everyday, I love it for the obstacles, challenges. Its scars wounds, bacteria and diseases.
The nature of life and survival.
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TIjo @thearcanebear ~ Thank you for following along in our journey. We appreciate you!
What an immensely awesome choice you have made there. It is good to go against the grain every now and then in a small or in your case a large way! Have fun out there and good luck with your future posts!
Thank you! It wasnt easy, and still isnt. We are constantly battling doing very good and very bad things. Life in solitude can be slow. We dont often get to speak to many poeple and steemit has become one of our main outlets for emotion and thought!
YES!
Oh hell YES, brother. Yes.
Bless~*~
Thanks for the love sista, appreciating it right now.
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I'm recognizing our 'outsider' connection more and more. Your rant is right on brother.
― Jiddu Krishnamurti
"From a very young age, I didn't want to fit in". We are very similar, only I'm 40 years your senior and appreciate very much, truth being shared.
From one of my mentors:
-TIO ANDY Cherokee Medicine Man
'Outsider' comes from the ancient Vedic concept of dharma, which is our duty, purpose, or life mission.
It is what and who we are on many levels within our individual consciousness.
Outsiders tend to be more aware and intelligent beings.
I will blog soon on this dharmic concept.
@bilbop I love the pragmatic thinking. I feel my younger age has a fight in me trying to lash out at some of this, i look forward to the changes in life that roll me over and smooth me out! Thank you for your kind and intelligent words. As per usual spot on brother!
You are most welcome. Thank you for your support also bro.
Being an outsider and a powerful warrior provides you with a unique perspective to learn and discern through the changes.
I support you and you vision. Follow your dreem and steem on.
great post Tijo, thanks for opening up, always interesting to hear some of the stories and key moments that helped shape and guide a person along their "path".
And sometimes you have to figure out who you're not, before you can figure out who you are...
Muchas verdad que nadie se atreve a decir. Eres un ejemplo de perseverancia y de seguir lo que quieres. Me da felicidad cuando estoy en la selva, mucha libertad y naturaleza, es un lugar donde eres tú mismo. Gracias por compartir tu experiencia de vida. Saludos desde tu casa, Perú.
Gracias hermano para su connecion. Con mucho gusto. Pura Vida y Amor!
It took me several years, to wind down to the point of only having a backpack and what was in it. I started with 6 months in Costa Rica, just floating.
My mind was always racing, where to next kind of deal, But after 2-3 weeks I could just sit and be content with just sitting, no plan no idea just looking a little closer at where I was and just breath. I never was a planner, but my eternal minute was always active. Once I slowed right down, I became almost Spiritual in nature.
Everywhere I went for 2 + months, almost from day 1 asked if I was going to the World Rainbow Gathering 2004. It was weird actually. I only met rainbows once at Sombrio beach Vancouver Island while camping. My answer was always no idea, thats a long time from now.
Oh shit I'm blogging over you LOL.
But I did go and it changed my whole view of the world and the people in it.
Cheers Brother
Yeah, I have been playing music and seen those seen for years. Sadly most of those kids have no practical way to implement what I have achieved. I outright own my property farm, garden, solar, fresh water wells. They jsut dream of what can be done. We did it. Fucking hippies hahah But the motion of the spirit is in all of us. Just needs a wake and shake sometimes!
I just say
woow:))haha thank you! for that, you get a follow! WoW is more than enough, many blessings
I'm hoping to manifest a life in a cooler, but similarly free environment! It's good to be WOKE!! I will be following you both here and in all aspects of love and light.
Working on it! get it, dig those heels in and move some dirt!
wow man!
yeah, its one of those days. Looking forward to when the sun comes and shines on us again. It has been so grey lately.
Isn't it strange what is valuable to us throughout life and how drastically that which we find valuable can change?
Your post reminds me of my dilemma. Because I have children, I often am forced to make decisions that... are not the same if I did not have them.
I hope they forgive me and understand the most difficult choices I've made in life in their favor.
They will grow up knowing that liberty is worth any price however. That is one of the few things in life that I am sure of.
Thanks for saying your thoughts. I gained from and appreciate them.
I am sure they will understand as they grow older, if not, you created a universe and it was birthed in them. I beleive childrean are one of the highest achivements two people can do togehter. if they fill those children with love, critical thinking, understanding, compassion, those children are like the ones who will change our grave future. One day we hope to have a family of our own. Thank you for your kind words, we are glad to hear we are reaching those who are on a similar path to ourselves! its important..... and one of my favourite quotes, those who risk freedom for security deserve neither! many blessings brother!
"My rewards are the small moments of connection with nature, the smells of the blooming plants. " I think is all in these words. I don't think you're insane, I think you're more sane than others! I'm lucky because now I can appreciate every single part of myself in relation with the nature, but it was a long walk to arrive here, so I wish you all the best.
Thank you for the support and kind words. Still working on finding our purpose out here. Perhaps our anger stems from this feeling. Hopefully we have many more years to try and correct these issues and reveal our more stoic sides with everyone.
wow really inspiring and great post, goes right in to my heart :)
made me think of a citation I heard once (unfortunately don't know exactly form where): "If you doing the things like everyone else is doing them you are almost certainly doing them wrong". So I think it is very good to be a bit outside of the box and "insane", which we certainly all are^^
Yesterday I revealed a little bit of my story as well here and it felt great, how does it feel for you?
Again thanks for sharing and have a wonderful day in beautiful Costa Rica (greetings to alle the amazing jungle animals^^)
Good, I have loved every step of the way. As much anger and passion below the surface. I am content. My lifes breathe could leave me now. I would embrace it.
I am glad that you found your way :)
You couldn't leave the internet behind huh ;)
no hehe, it was how we managed to create a foundation for us to do any of this, its our connection to the globe, we are living locally and reacting and respng globally with others. The internet is our intermediary for pshychic behaviors we have lots! Long live the internet!
Great Post man ! :)
Ye, one step at a time, thats how you do it. Than repeat and rinse!
"You take the blue pill, the story ends. You wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes." The term redpill refers to a human that is aware of the true nature of the Matrix (taken from off the WWW). Once awake you can never go back, you start learning to become a human again..We are ALL on this spinning globe...Hang in there youngin I suspect you will adapt well to a created future that you have helped build. One person at a time to be the change you wish to see is how it grows..
Thank you for the supportive words. Screaming in the jungle alone are the hard days. Sprinkled with moments of totally clarity, benevolence and love in amongst the chaos. Spinning and travelling through space at astronomical speeds~ Thank you
Be aware you are not alone, there are more of us then you will ever know ;-)
I am glad to hear. We dont get to see each other often in these secluded areas. Steemit and the internet is bringing us closer together. In a time when connection is so important. Thank you
We connect where ever we are, in person, jungle, stores, internet, being human is the key. We can't control the governments but we can starve the beast that feeds them in ways that are civil and respectful to our self.
Heck yes! Growing foods and living in respect with nature. Our fighting words!
respect!
Thank you, respect for you and yours.
I´m going to follow you. Ooooh, I already do!
Hey Hey! Well now we follow you. Thank you for your support!
Thank you. Still trying to find my message, hopefully you are patiently with me.
But I am attracted to your lifestyle.
Yeah, we are all learning together. We can learn to suffer less from eachother mistakes and grow and learn to take care of one another, those around us/
I really enjoyed read your story. I did not understand where are you living right now. Yes, I understand that you live in the jungle but where? Asia, Europe, Africa etc... ?
Do you live off grid? I want to do the same, maybe in the future.
We live in central America, in costa rica, we are off grid, with solar, fresh water wells and a greenhouse! ITs a lot of hard work, and takes the mind of a warrrior to withstand!
After my reply I read 4 or 5 of your previous post and I found out that you are off grid etc. You seem a warrior :)
I understand that is difficult to live like you but I would like to and also I am vegan and I want to grow my own vegetables/fruits.
I guess everypath has its ups and its downs, we are greatful. A community and loved ones make all the difference. its just me and the dog out here, and our conversation together could be more stimulating haha, glad I have the internet. Im not sure I would be strong enough to do this by myself otherwise.
You choose your own path, I respect about this. Nice! :)
ride baby, ride
You are the prime example when i say to people be yourself, stunning expression!
Thank you for your kind words, we are trying our best!
Wow @thearcanebear (love your steemit name by the way)...you have tremendous courage to leave "success" (as defined by society) and go your own way. I'm very inspired by what you've done. I haven't moved to the jungle, but in my own small way I also left the mainstream. I used to work for a conservation organization and I had a good career there. However, I just became so disillusioned by the politics of board members and leaders and I felt that I wasn't achieving anything for the planet other than becoming depressed. I quit the job and I refuse to work for any boss or corporate but instead have scaled down so that I live very modestly. I still live in a city, but I sustain myself with regular trips to nature areas close by. I don't have a lot of money and many of my friends think I was crazy to leave a good job and just try to fend for myself. You've taken it to a whole different level - so my respect for you is enormous.
Thanks brother, its been very difficult, more so than I ever imagined, I thought once I got to the gardening it would get easier, it hasnt, its still a fight to remind myself why I sit out here alone and work on these truths. I appreciate the respect and support!
We are deploying our moving next year! You did exactly same think with I plan since 2013. Finally it is passible!
Yeah! Sounds great, keep us posted. Sometimes its not till we forget about it that it starts to come true!
Thanks! Stay safe :-)!
I moved to the jungle in 1993 to escape the "real cruel world." I have spent more than half my life here. I resonate with what you are saying. Within the past 10 years I have met my teachers who have helped to put it into perspective. One is Jeffrey Wolf Green, who wrote the books Pluto Vol. 1 and Vol. 2. He explains Evolutionary States of human beings. He says that 70% of the world population is in the Consensus or "Herd" State. These people need the status quo and do not like people who do not fit in the Consensus state.
20% of the population are in the "Individuated" state and they do not fit into the Consensus state. These beings can range from the homeless guy on the street to the eccentric or different.
5% of the population are in the Spirituated State.
And the last 5% are the Dimly Evolved.
I am giving a very brief synopsis of a deep topic. I plan to write about this in a future blog. The post being here in my comment, is to understand where it is we are and where it is we are not. And to own your Evolutionary State.
It's the fierce Individuated state of Evolution that rocks the status quo and allows for a transformation.
Yeah, we feel a big shift comming, we have been studying economics and business for the last 7 years which was one of the main highlights that led us to some of these conclusions!
"I am not by any means a smart human being" well you sure sound like one to me, glad i've found such an inspiring person to follow!
Thank you, we have done many dumb and stupid things that will follow us for life like a shadow, we try to keep it in balance and make sure as often as we feel smart, we rexognize how dumb we have been hehe. I appreciate your kind words and glad its been inspiring!
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dude, this isnt how you do well, jsut for this I am gonna flag your post as spam.