Dear @steemitcountry, I have not mastered the teachings of Gautama Buddha. I had a very bad temper and found a Buddhist teacher in my community because I wanted to become a better mother. I have four grown children now but back in the early 90s my children were young and I needed a steady heart to help them grow up. Sunim my first teacher helped me grow up..hahaha, I am forever grateful to Sunim for his compassion teaching a wild farm girl how to walk through my emotions and other's emotions without being moved, to see things clearly.
Now I practice the art of living so I can die with a clear heart and see clearly which Path to take after this body has died. I still get angry but my anger only last a few seconds or a few minutes rather than days, weeks or years!
So I continue to learn and practice. I am glad we have found common ground to communicate <3
maybe one day you can learn about the techniques of muhasabah and muraqabah, you can practice it, he is not much different from what you have learned, maybe just different in belief of life after death, existence of heaven and hell, I happened from religious family of religion, but I do not obey religion, ha ha ha,
then I am sent to the school of theology and sharia, (I met my wife there). I can practice some, but my soul is calm, I also like you, there is anger, but I muffle it with Sufi practice, thank you for sharing with me