Funny the effect aromatics can have! Sorry to hear you've been down.
Do you know if you can eat the leaves? They are bitter - I've tried them, so I haven't died - but I can't find any literature about whether the leaves will have any effect. I tend to be a garden muncher - a leaf of this, a sniff of that, a chew on this - I like to think that the ashwagandwa is part of that sheep diet.