Lately you have become a bit of a train station with so many visitors it is hard for you to get out and see other posts.
I am 'struggling' in two ways as I am also trying to spend more time in reality :) I seem to keep getting drawn into the matrix though. At times, I wonder if I am doing enough, other times I wonder if I do too much. Time will tell which I guess.
Like you I don't expect and enjoy giving as much as I do receiving.
It makes getting more enjoyable when there is the sense of having earned the privilege.