If I would be a very good artist, I'd say this is something coming from inside, as you said, maybe one of my emotions became part of the drawing. But I'm a beginner and I draw what I can. Meaning, I start something and like this drawing, I get something, maybe a totally different thing.
The model is a very interesting guy, I guess I'm going to draw more based on his photos. I want to tell you who he is, you're going to see how expressive he is. I'm sending you a message on Discord.
You know, while I was drawing, my only concern was to create something acceptable, so my drawing would look like a human being. It amuses me how I have to redo some parts, like noses, mouths, eyes etc. So while drawing I can only concentrate on the work. As I said in my post, I can laugh about how untalented I am, and how creepy my drawings can be. This is good because it's fun and gives me pleasure, makes me want to draw more. And it's also a therapy for me, it helps me think, put my thoughts in order.
After that, however, looking at it, it made me feel sad, somehow I felt sorry for him because indeed, it looks like he has some huge problems. I should have erased a part of it and draw it again but I'm always afraid of ruining it completely and not being able to restore it.
So I left it as it is and I'm going to do another drawing soon, making sure it won't be a sad face.
Feel free to ask me anything, I don't really have anyone to talk about this, except for a few people. But you're the only one who explained it with great details. I'm so happy and grateful for that :)
I find myself also redoing parts of my poetry and music. I think this is a normal part of the creative process. Artists are never satisfied with their work, and this is the mark of a good artist in my opinion!
I'm laughing at the idea of you being untalented, that is so not true!!!
This is something we share in common! :)
It's hard for me to say, but I think you made the right choice. It doesn't look like a beginner drew this. If in fact you are a beginner, you are very advanced, more so than you might think. I also think there is meaning to why the drawing came out opposite of his perceived emotion. What the meaning is, I'm not sure because I am not the artist, but I think it has to either do with you, or something your subconscious picked up on with his emotions.
If it comes out sad again, that's ok! I will just have to virtually tickle you and make you laugh with emojis, and it won't bother you so much! 😛 😉
Be careful what you wish for 😉 💕
The new guy drawing is out, I'm so excited to see what you think of it. :)