Can I be more grateful to steem? for my life? I will. Living fully is the answer to fear and uncertainty. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, all we have is today. Steem, and CryptoCurrency is a chance for me to rise above my circumstances. I'm learning marketable skills, cryptocurrency, investment, linux, and so much more.
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The result of that is that I figured it wasn't my time, and it's a perfect time to make some good choices in life. I'm very grateful for my family, because it would have hurt them the most, and I'll be happy to have a chance to hug them some more and share life with them. I'm also grateful because of this community. It's finding Steem, and the BlockChain community that gave me a way to be productive and do more positive things with my life. Previously, I was just chasing around "feeling good" through sex, drugs, and careless living.
I'm ready to grow up, and into the productive member of life that I know is within me, within this cocoon, and forming into something beautiful. My deepest passion has always been learning, and there is so much to learn here
I've also made a commitment to myself to abstain from alcohol and sex for a year. Somehow, being reborn makes these commitments easy, though I know I'll have to stay strong when the temptation comes. I will, because I know those are the decisions that will enable me to stay focused on work, and building healthy relationships with the people around me. It's not that I think that there's anything wrong with sex, drugs, and alcohol. Personally, I've just never had a healthy relationship with them.
Happy New Year, and blessings to you all! I'm so grateful for this community, and I'll do my best to be a positive, productive, and beneficial member as we move forward into this exciting new year.
The world finally knows about BitCoin, FOR REAL. They are beginning to become more and more aware of Steem and Steemit, which is exciting too. I'm taking an inventory of where I'm spending my time, and going to make some cuts some places, and figure out the most productive ways to spend it. This is the beginning of the rest of our lives. Best to choose wisely how to spend them.
I Love You!
and I Love myself again, too! <3 <3 <3
I have a first assignment for you. I did this one time, and it was really beneficial. Pick one day and think of it like this: "If I loved myself, what would I do?"
Think about how you would treat someone who you really loved......think of all the things you would do for them. Would you take them out to eat? What kinds of things would you do for someone you loved?
Now, turn that person into yourself. I know it sounds silly, but take one day out of your life, and treat yourself as if you loved yourself. You can go back to hating yourself the next day, but just take one day out of this self-hatred, and at least pretend you love yourself.
I could only do this one day........the next i went back to the regular way of neglecting my needs....
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Holy shit. This is really serious. In many ways, what you describe is very similar to my history as well. I fantasized about killing myself many times, but never followed through......well, I did put myself in the hospital once by cutting a huge part of my arm....I was drunk at the time, go figure.
It really sounds like you could use someone to help you through those times when you will feel like drinking. You need a partner for this. Do you have anyone now?
Because you came clean with all of this, and you are really wanting a big change, I will let you keep your SP, as you know I'm undelegating everyone, so as to focus solely on Slothicorn.
I think out of all the people I delegated to, I think you could use a bit of help about now. So, just keep the SP, and focus on getting well. You're going to need all the help, as kicking all those addictions at once is not to be a cakewalk. Oddly enough, I had all the same addictions as you, and very unhealthy connections to sex, drinking, drugs and also smoking. Actually, it is a miracle that I have kicked all these habits, and instead became a workaholic. You will need to focus on substitutions of addictions in the beginning....and retrain your brain to do something other than drinking. I would suggest you begin with finding something that your brain likes, that you can do instead of drinking.....do that other thing more and more. I have a lot of ideas in this area, as you know I was a hardcore alcoholic for much of my adult life. If you need ideas, let me know......you will have to construct a new life. That's the one thing that you will need to focus your mind on.
I am quite shocked by your admission.....I had no idea your mental health was that tragic. I know you can do this.
My mental health was strong and well, until it wasn't. But really it was just hiding behind work and booze, and not having to face myself and my problems head on. Which I tried to do the only way that I could figure. Strange as it may sound, I think I made the right decision that day, when I tried to end it. Since it didn't work, my life, mind, spirit, and resolve have been slowly growing.
It takes courage and strength to face your demons, and certainly conviction to make changes to your life. I would err on the caution of abstinence, only because staying away from something doesn't guarantee that you won't be affected by it. The best way to be free of an affliction is to be able to master your own control over how it affects you. Staying away from it means that it still controls you, but just in a different way. But if you need someone to hold you accountable, I suggest co-coach where you can also keep someone who has a goal accountable as well.
Do you have an accountability partner?
Also, you might need a doctor. A friend of mine who went cold turkey ended up having a seizure, which resulted in brain damage.....
I don't really have an accountability partner. Currently I'm in a space where no alcohol is allowed, and whenever the thought to drink arises I am able to quickly counter it with the harsh reality of what drinking gave me.
no, no doctors for me. for some reason since I've gotten out of the hospital I haven't craved alcohol at all, nor have I experienced ill effects from not drinking. :)
4 days sober, now. yay!
First I would like to wish you a happy new year! second I would like to thank you for sharing your photos, experiences and stories, because they help a lot all new steemians like me, who want to grow and reach your level of quality.
Since today I will follow closely your posts and your blog updates. Will be happy if you follow @nunojesus
Good luck on your journies, friend! I hope you find lots of success. I've been running a series of contests about how to better welcome new users, if you scroll back my feed a bit, you can find a lot of helpful information from the last few weeks :)
Happy New Year.
p.s. Don't ask people to follow you, it's not polite, but most new people don't know that, so I understand. ;)
I was almost brought to tears- I am so happy that you are better now and I admire your courage to share this with us, I will try to learn the message from your story and be productive in positive ways.
also - thank you for making me to hone my photoshop skills again with the "welcome to steemit" contest - it was really fun and I really needed it to stop the race of life for a bit.
so a bit late - happy new year, health, happiness and fun!
I had no idea man. Please, if you ever feel the need, come talk.
Love you, brother! Some things are hard to talk about. Life is going to be a lot better off of the booze. :)
I understand, and the offer stands as well.
I personally rarely drink anymore. I dislike hangovers.
I Love You!
Wow! dear Alien *muah!! <3 <3 <3
I love you, buddy!
steem and cryptocurrency like the morning sun, we know the world is not always dark
First: Happy New Year, and I wish you a great and productive year!
I can only say that these things is always so sad to hear. So sad with so little love for yourself and maybe depression and anxiety as well. Life passes fast and is valuable but in such hard times it’s not possible to see that.
But I’m so happy for you and for the fact you have found something really meaningful in your life! So glad to have you here my friend.
Much love ❤️
Great to hear, best of luck... I gave up drinking 3 plus years ago / Peace
happy new year, friend!
I read this and just say, It is an amazing story, but it is even more amazing as something called steemit can unite so many people and make them grow to have a better life, I see the comments and it is to admire everything they say, beautiful your words, my best wishes to you
Happy New Year my friend, I wish you a happy long life!
If you're gonna celebrate big tonight, you should my New Year's contest for free Steem I do on my blog.
Congratulation you did it, "control on your soul". You are only one , no one can like you, don't spoil over self by comparing and doing nonsense things in life to just enjoy. Happy to listen you are out and I welcome you back in world that created for only you.
Self love is the best love. Congratulations for deciding to put yourself first. Glad you’re still here ❤️
Counting my blessings and wishing you more. Hope you enjoy the New year in steemit. My dear Friend ...
I don't know if I have anything else to say here since I already pounded on you in Discord a bit...
I must say, you are pretty good at accomplishing things you set your mind to, so I am glad this is something you failed to complete.
Get Clean and start your future! You have a support base here to call on as needed!
Damn bro, I am so glad that you are doing better. You are an important person to a lot of people here. It takes a lot of courage to come out from behind that dark curtain and be honest with yourself and everyone around you. I hope that you know you have tons of people here who care about you. Take care buddy and I'll be seeing you.
thanks, friend.
You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.
wish you and your family a very happy new year my friend, may god bless you.